This is how I feel about myself. The good and the bad.
The good: I can be a very helpful person. I feel like people sometimes feel comfortable coming to me about anything and everything because I try my best to be a great person. I try my hardest to help as many people as I can. I can also be very creative. I love just being weird, loud, and silly around the few people I feel comfortable around. I like doing all I can for people, it makes me feel a little better about myself knowing I could make someone smile or feel completely better.
The bad: I’ve never exactly loved myself. People have called my fat and ugly over the years, and after I certain point, I started to believe it. It’s something I think about every day of my life. It’s not something I wish I had to think about but, I can’t help. I hate everything about my body. It’s not what I want to see or want others to see. I try to change, but it’s hard because I don’t feel like I’m good enough. I’m nothing special, nothing about me stands out to make people want to be with me. I’ll never understand, and no one will ever care enough to make me change my mind. I don’t mean just one person, I mean everyone. If everyone were to help me love myself, that’d be great and I would really start to. I know that’ll never happen, it’s just a thought. I just don’t want to be who I am. I wish everything about me was different sometimes but, it’s mostly just my body. I hate my body and I’m worthless. I’m not important to the world and never will be. I’m not good enough for anything, and I never will be.
